Just Like Heaven
It has been a while since I stopped by here. Well it is just that I have been in quite a daze and couldn’t get my thoughts in order. Actually I still am not quite out of it! The reason you ask…..? Is that I still can’t believe that in about 46 days or so I am likely to be home! Yeah home! “Home – where the heart is!” :)
In all of these last eighteen months that I have spent in the US, I have always somehow felt that I left my real life on ‘pause’ back home. Something akin to Adam Sandler in his recent movie ‘Click’. It might sound rather absurd because in reality in all of the three years that I have been working, [which I incidentally only completed this last Friday] only five months have actually been in my home town Chennai. Yet that physical distance that my current assignment put between me and my family and friends is something I have struggled to cope with, which is why I have often felt that I am just going through the motions both at the workplace and otherwise.
In a manner of speaking to add insult to injury, most of the books I have been reading and the movies that I have been watching recently seem to point towards the need for a greater appreciation of life as in spending more time with family and celebrating relationships. And here I am stuck with appreciating that thought but not having them to appreciate! Sometimes all that is interesting in the week is waiting for Saturday morning so I can have everyone at home to talk to at once. Listening to my Mom ramble about her week, my sisters fighting to break some exciting news to me first or at times disappointed at not having much to say, catching Dad in light-hearted moment or in his usual business-man like repertoire can make for my week’s most exciting hour or hours :)
Well the experience did help me enrich other relationships – like with my aunt and my cousins out here and also did help me find my Best Friend:). Yet just thinking of going back now has gotten my pulse racing. I am constantly thinking of all the sights. How places might have changed! And people too! All the stories I need to catch up on and all of Mom’s recipes to gorge on. After all, aren’t all the things that we normally take for granted which end up making life just like heaven!
In all of these last eighteen months that I have spent in the US, I have always somehow felt that I left my real life on ‘pause’ back home. Something akin to Adam Sandler in his recent movie ‘Click’. It might sound rather absurd because in reality in all of the three years that I have been working, [which I incidentally only completed this last Friday] only five months have actually been in my home town Chennai. Yet that physical distance that my current assignment put between me and my family and friends is something I have struggled to cope with, which is why I have often felt that I am just going through the motions both at the workplace and otherwise.
In a manner of speaking to add insult to injury, most of the books I have been reading and the movies that I have been watching recently seem to point towards the need for a greater appreciation of life as in spending more time with family and celebrating relationships. And here I am stuck with appreciating that thought but not having them to appreciate! Sometimes all that is interesting in the week is waiting for Saturday morning so I can have everyone at home to talk to at once. Listening to my Mom ramble about her week, my sisters fighting to break some exciting news to me first or at times disappointed at not having much to say, catching Dad in light-hearted moment or in his usual business-man like repertoire can make for my week’s most exciting hour or hours :)
Well the experience did help me enrich other relationships – like with my aunt and my cousins out here and also did help me find my Best Friend:). Yet just thinking of going back now has gotten my pulse racing. I am constantly thinking of all the sights. How places might have changed! And people too! All the stories I need to catch up on and all of Mom’s recipes to gorge on. After all, aren’t all the things that we normally take for granted which end up making life just like heaven!
posted by Mel at 12:17 AM
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